Courtship negativities

A guy who courts you seriously is a guy willing to go through many things just for them to be with you. But then what if that guy is  close to you and he feels like he has almost a hundred percent chance of you two being together in the future? 

Someone is courting you and you two feels like you’re more than friends. At least he knows you two are more than friends. You make him court you for longer and make him wait more and more because oftentimes you think, he deserves it. It may also be because you are testing him of how long he can actually wait for him to be with you. You still make him wait more, more and more. You want to know everything about him, or at least many things about him. This takes time. This is your excuse. 

But when he makes you feel bad at times because you make him wait more, it sucks. No, it makes you guilty. Feels like your conscience is making you guilty. Another reason why is when you blurt out how he doesn’t have the right to do something that has something to do with you because he’s not your boyfriend. And then you feel like a horrible person. When you two are on the phone, and you do blurt out some stuff like that and then there is this mere silence that takes over. Then you feel like a horrible person again.

You simply hate it when that guy feels like he has the right to know every little thing about you. You have secrets too. He feels like he has to see you everyday. Thatsucks feels wrong because it makes you feel like you don’t have space.

This is a courtship negativity. =|

Out of Place.

Grrrh! You hate it when people leave you out. It makes you feel like you don’t belong. Worse is, when one of the person who left you out is your close friend. Then they suddenly talk about something. When they start to do that, you just want to get out of there because sometimes, you feel like they are talking about you.

You just hate that feeling. YOU GET ANNOYED yet you still stay there so it won’t be shameful. You don’t want them to know how you are feeling because then they will feel obliged not to make you OUT of PLACE again. And then it feels fake when they start to do that. You rather want them to be real towards you than be fake. 

It’s even worse if so many of your close friends leave you for another then you feel like that person they left you out for is a better person than you are, is a better friend than you are. But then again, what can you do? Be evil and steal your close friend from that person? NO.

You simply be happy for them. It’s both yours and his/hers fault if your friendship disappears. Not only yours, not only his/hers. 

AS LONG AS THEY ARE HAPPY, YOU ARE, TOO. =)